Just a quick diddy

It's been a bit since I have been on to blog. I need to do better, it makes me feel better.
I the time I have been away, things have gotten CrAzy!
Of course not much has changed with My 70 Year Old Toddle, because lets face it, she is mentally ill and that is not going to change. She is in a rehab at this moment, but they are sick of her yelling at them, so we got the call this morning that she will be discharged on Friday morning right after breakfast. One good part in this is the two little girls have gotten to start school without her added stress. She has been running pretty high for the last couple weeks, which makes me think that they are not giving her the meds as needed. But there is nothing I can do about that.
In February B had a little Mental break down....  He has been seeing the Doctor almost weekly and is on a lot of meds, but it just doesn't seem as if he is getting better. He sleeps so much and is just not engaged in the family at all. He is not even doing much with his Mom. So now I am caring for 2 mentally ill people at this point. He has not been working since February, so things have gotten pretty tight here, and of course The Toddler does not understand that she does run up some bills.
The girls and I did get out of here for 10 days, we had to go see J before she flies off to college, I know she is going to miss us! She is going do be amazing though. With her leaving to college it just drives home that I should try to go back to school. Everyone is older and I need to take care of business if need be.
I guess when I got married 18 years ago, I didn't know that I was marrying the Toddler also. I had no problem having N in our family, there was never a question to how important see was/is to our family. But the Toddle didn't even come around, I didn't even really know her before she moved in and I became her care giver. To be honest I didn't even know what mental illness was before that time. I mean lets not get dramatic.... I did know what it was, I just didn't understand so much about it. Something I can say that I wish I still didn't know this much about.
I feel as if I am just rambling at this point so I am going to sign off for now. Maybe collect my thoughts and give a little more when I get up at 4am stressing about the world.