It's has been a bit since I have written, I guess the need for quiet is more important, than listening to the screams in my head. My Toddler is not going to change, I do understand that, she is NEVER going to want to be in our house, NEVER want to get to know her younger 3 AMAZING Grand~daughter, and she is NEVER going to want to be nice to me. With that understanding, I just tried to do what needed to be done and stay away from her when ever possible, not go into Doctor's visits (let them try and figure out how to help her), NOT interact in conversations with her, NOT ask how she is doing, feeling, needing.......
Try to just keep everything as level as possible!!!
Last week it was "B's" Birthday. That being said it is VERY HARD to do, I tried to figure out a GREAT gift for my husband. I worked on in for weeks, planning for him to go see "N". It is for "N's" Birthday also, they haven't seen each other of over 2 years and it is time. The PROBLEM you ask, well "N" is the ONE and ONLY in the TODDLERS eyes, and she feels she should get to go! The WHOLE Birthday back fires and here we go, my nice gesture of doing a loving thing for my Husband, turns into a HUGE guilt trip that we are leaving the TODDLER out. OMG !!! REALLY, he should be`able to have 3 days to spend with his daughter!!!!!!!!!!! Besides the fact the neither "N" OR "B" would be~able to care for the TODDLER!!!!! and the ROLLER COASTER is headed down.........
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